Parenting is freaking tough and sometimes I dislike my children… gasp!!! Okay, don’t get preachy on me. I love my kids with all my heart. I’d do anything for them. They also occasionally make me want to throw them out a window. Don’t worry, the weather’s lovely so the windows are open.
Seriously, though. Today has been exhausting. My one year old has recently learned how to throw tantrums, and he’s fucking good at it. Get this; he can dramatically melt into the ground… in slow motion. #Gifted, right?! The three-year-old, she burns with the rage of a thousand suns. She can go from a sweet, happy, aloof little thing to the Hulk within seconds. I know, I’m bragging again. And Miss Sass, my five-year-old, can snap back with a level of sarcasm that continues to surprise me. Her talent, finding and pushing my buttons.
Parenting is not for the weak. If you have kids, you know that you have to be strong if you want to keep your mind somewhere in the realm of sanity. I’m a stay-at-home mom, so this is my day job. I have locked myself in the bathroom while fingers reached under the door like a scene from The Walking Dead. There have been many times that have I eaten my lunch (usually a sandwich because it’s the quickest thing I can make) on the go, changing a diaper or putting a toddler down for a nap between bites. The last time I had time to myself was to run to the grocery store. Hey, I’ll take it. It’s a tough gig.
I know being a working parent is extremely tough too. I would never argue that. I’ve bounced around the idea of going back to work, but while we’re here in the US, it’s just not possible. Childcare is so far out of reach for us. So for now, I’ll sit at home wondering what I could be doing with my Bachelor Degree (I’d be happy with anything that gives real bathroom breaks!!) while I clean up the mess that I just cleaned five minutes earlier. If you’re having a rough day, take a step back and remind yourself that you’re doing great. Remember to stop being so hard on yourself. None of us are perfect. We’re all trying our best and we’re all losing our minds a little.